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30 Days of Truth

Adam started it. And then she did it. And so did she. Her too ! So, if they jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge I would too I decided I wanted to do it as well.

Now, being the procrastination princess I won’t do them all 30 days in a row, but spread it out as I go. Here’s the outline ….

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 – Something you have to forgive someone else for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

So today, I’ll do Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.

I hate that I let myself get back out of shape after Gregory died. I went the opposite of most who lose weight. I gained it, and then some. Drinking copious amounts of wine and staying up all night and sleeping all day will do that to you. After losing over 60 pounds a few years ago and getting into an established and great exercise routine, I let it all go to hell. Now I have to start all over again, and the fact that I can’t find the motivation in myself pisses me off. I can motivate my ass to the Dairy Queen and I pass three gyms, several parks and miles of great bike riding roads in the process, and I always think ” I’ll start next week.” I need a friend or someone to help me get going, stick to it and get me off the “poor widow me” track I seem to be stuck on. And I hate myself for not being able to suck it up and do it myself. I know the insomnia, the blahs and the general feeling of craptaculars in general could be helped by exercise and feeling better. But some days, it’s just easier to lift a glass of wine than a dumbbell.

This girl would have kicked my ass for me ….

I hate myself for losing her.

Next time – something I love about myself…..

11 Responses to “30 Days of Truth”

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  1. Miss Britt says:

    OK, I’m sorry, but “I can motivate my ass to the Dairy Queen” cracked me the hell up.

    • Kim says:

      Hehehe that’s ok….I was looking for something to recommend on Buh Her – hee….working on my profile now !

  2. Robin says:

    Hey, I had the exact same grief reaction….gained 100 pounds in 9 months and still have it 18 years later! :o/

  3. Karen says:

    Thought I was the only widow to do this… gained 10 pounds in the 3 1/2 months since my husband died (and the doctor is wondering why my cholesterol is high???). Same problem with not being motivated to exercise, too. And knowing it would help me sleep. Etc. etc. etc.


  4. Sybil Law says:

    Well I can yell at you, but I don’t think that works, either.
    However, I’ll totally drink with you. :)

  5. Stacy says:

    I’m stealing this.

    And I’m with you… though I didn’t lose my husband to anything other than a cheap 80s band whore, most people in a divorce situation lose weight. I did not. People at work, who think I want their opinions, tell me what to do to lose weight. I’ll get there when I’m damn good and ready, thank you very much. And so will you.

  6. Foo says:

    I gained a bunch of weight after my husband’s death…once I started eating again…sigh. I pretty much ate a box of Mac-n-Cheese every night because I thought it made me feel better…and during the height of grief, I was willing to try just about anything. You’ll get yourself back on that bike, I have no doubt.

  7. you. are. splendid.


  8. Cadi says:

    I was pregnant when he died.
    At least I had an excuse for gaining weight.
    Cause I’m sure I would have even if I hadn’t been pregnant.

  9. Lynda says:

    I gained all my weight back after my sister died.

    That being said, I wish I lived closer to you, because my goal is to get in a position where I can help people lose weight.

  10. MPdaCNA says:

    Thanks for linking up on my Blog … I hope that you enjoy reading my entries as well as the others.

    Anyone else doing the 30 Days of Truth can join in … Love to check you all out!

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